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Writing a blog is both a way to express your creative self and a method of feeding some small narcissistic part of you that you didn't even know existed until you get that first comment. That narcissistic self then gets greedy and wants more and more (this sounds like it should be in the bad, huh?) - your friends read it and make a comment or two - but then....whammo you're hit with your first I-have-no-idea-who-the-heck-you-are comment...you're scared, elated, nervous and proud all at the same time. It's....odd. Generally, these first few comments are from people who agree with what you are blogging and life goes on wonderfully...your followers and fan base grow ever so slightly.
In your excitement, you tell your family about it. This was my mistake. You see, remember up there where I said that my blog was going to tell the non-Disney version of mommy-hood?? Yeah...I
Here's the problem though...I may say "Wow, my blog is really getting noticed, it's great!" and my mom (being oh-so-proud of the child prodigy that she gave birth to) goes and reads a post where I complain about something that she's done. I feel guilty. I mean, I love my mom...I care about her and her feelings and this hinders me from writing other negative posts about her. I'm torn between
Negative comments also go in The Bad category. When you get that first negative comment that says something like "you're wrong, you silly stupid head, motherhood is always pleasant and wonderful and this blog and your ideas are the work of Satan!" -- well, that kinda puts a downer on my day.
The Ugly category is basically the same thing as The Bad - but to a higher extreme. These are the people who follow my blog that make nonsensical comments, have horrible spelling and/or grammar and otherwise tick me off. Normally, I'd tell these people that they need to read a book of basic English grammar (or in some cases, Etiquette 101)...but then I worry -- am I going to be making fun of someone who has English as a Second Language or has special needs? I don't want to do that (intentionally that is).
There are also followers of my blog that I'd kill to
Another bit of Ugly is the Nasty comments -- this goes beyond the negative ones that tell me what a poopy head I am to calling me horrible names and basically leaving me to feel like I am a useless slug in need of a giant salt shaker to make a long, painful end of my life. Yeah. Those are the Nasty comments.
In the end - I'm still going to blog - whether I have just one follower or thousands. I find it very therapeutic to write (and you folks would not believe the number of blog posts that I have left unpublished...it's kinda terrifying actually). Just letting you Nasty Commenters know that you won't stop me!